I can't even believe that it has been two years since my sweet angel baby passed away. We have had so many friends that have lost little children this year. It has been so hard to watch our friends with the lose of their loved ones. It also brought up all of the emotions that we went through when Rylee died. I was able to work through a lot of emotions that I hadn't dealt with before, after Rylee died. I was so grateful that I was able to offer some advice or help in any way that I could during these hard times.
There are so many times when I wish I could have had more time with Rylee. I want to hold her again, change her diaper, feed her, dress her in a cute outfit, make her laugh, listen to her cry, watch her play with my children, take her to therapy, give her medicine, fix her hair,watch her laugh when a child is crying, so many things that I would love to do again, even just for one more day. I still have dreams that she is alive and I can hold her and love her. Those are my favorite dreams because they seem so real to me. It makes me sad when I wake up and realize that it was just a dream, but at least I can feel for a moment that I still have my baby with me. Even better than dreams are the times that I can feel her spirit with me. It has been awhile since that has happened, but I am so grateful for every time I know that her spirit is with me. I remember feeling her when Jake was born, actually because Jake was almost born about three weeks prior to his birthday, I felt her both times. In fact she rode on the ambulance with me when I had to be taken from one hospital to another during the whole Jake trauma. I was glad to have her there with me, it just made me feel like everything was going to be fine.
I just also want to say that I am so grateful for wonderful friends and family that remember her today. That means so much to me. I could never be able to find the words to thank you enough. We have been so blessed with such great friends and family to help us through hard times. I mostly feel blessed today because I am lucky enough to be the mom to a sweet perfect little angel who taught me more than I could have ever thought possible. Rylee I love you and miss you everyday.
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Thought about you all day long.
Love you.
did you ever get the chance to read this? http://eagarbrood.blogspot.com/2007/04/rylee-hendricks-100604-40807.html
We love her and miss her every day. Thank you for letting us be a part of her life. She is a "valiant angel" and we are eternally thankful for the 2 1/2 years that we had to spend with her. Love you guys!
What a sweet post! I can't imagine losing one of my own. I am amazed by your strength. You are a wonderful example to not only me, but all who surround you! What a blessing to feel Rylee's spirit about you. I can hardly believe that it's already been 2 years. So much happens so fast! Too fast! I guess we should take a deep breath, slow down and take it all in! What an amazing ride this life is!
I was thinking about you a great deal the other day. I feel I am really lucky for having known and loved Rylee. I really feel you, Bill and your family are such great blessing in my life. I love the tombstone you have for her. She is truly a valiant spirit and continues to be a good influence for my family because we were able to know and love her.
Your words brought me to tears. You do endure this well, but I know you don't always show the aching that's in your heart. What an absolute blessing to have her spirit with you at times. You are loved and protected.
We love and miss you rylee.
Thinking of you this Easter weekend... funny how I didn't know you then and had no idea how close we would become :) Thanks for being there for me these last few months and being someone to talk to... I'm so grateful for your friendship... Love you!
Ohhh Sweet Rylee :) I miss her cute face! ---Thinking of you guys this Easter day. I know it must be so hard.
I've thought of your family these
past few days. I'm so grateful to hear of the tender mercies you have
had of feeling Rylee near you. We
send our love to each of you. Keri.
We thought of Rylee and talked about her on Easter. Rylee makes Easter more meaningful, and Easter makes Rylee's life more meaningful! We loved her so much! We feel it a privilege and a blessing to have known her sweet spirit. Your family is a great example to us in how you have lived this experience. Thank You.
Allyson - been thinking about you and your cute girl this month, especially on Easter. We miss Miss Rylee, as well and are grateful that we got to know her, and you!
Love ya!
What a neat post, Allison. Thank you for sharing your feelings and memories. It brought tears to my eyes as I read. God bless you!
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